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Paul Yantsevsky
PREFACE
Do you like to talk about yourself? If you say yes, should this mean you're abnormally selfabsorbed and ought to visit a psycho-analyst next weekend? Noway, how could I think of you that? To avoid my unlovable assumptions you better say you hate talks about your personality and are quite sure there are a lot of more interesting things to discuss. Yeah, seems to be very commendable. But in this case another question arises: why are you so close of yourself? May be you've got something to hide, something dark and terrible deep inside of your soul that couldn't be revealed without screams of horror amid the audience? May be you've even killed somebody? Oh, my God! What a nightmare! I'd better withdraw before it's too late. Ok, after all that dare you state your silence about your life is the kind of goodness? As to myself, I've always been deadly interested of who really are that people standing behind versatile creativity represented at the vast of WWW. And I always found no answer cause that people were always damnably modest and kept righteous silence. Why? What for? Cause of fear to be accused of unallowable indiscretion or something? Anyway, I don't want to repeat their mistake. So I'll try to talk with you about who I suppose I am and what I believe I am. Sure, that could be interesting for you and may be for me too. WHO AM I Last time I took a look at the contents of this section I suddenly realized that all the information about me except my birthdate is no more actual and must be immediately updated. I was born in Saint-Petersburg also known as the cultural capital of Russia. And this is forever true. But a year ago I have moved to Germany and now I live in Duesseldorf. So I was forced to learn german and cause of that I've forgotten english. Now this is so hard for me to write in english. I'd better prefer german, but there are so few people in the world who could understand me in that case. So, I must suffer these real torments and continue updating. Well, now then, I've graduated the college and my profession is communication designer. Now I'm trying to find a job in Germany (mainly as a designer). In my childhood I was never dreaming of writing music (but now it's my most important occupation). As I can still remember (my memory is well), apparently influenced by my mother's profession I longed to be an automobile designer and that early passion of mine has been transformed to my life position. Going this way I entered school of art, then the Аcademy of Art and Design in Saint-Petersburg. However my wish of being a designer unfortunately had gone all away, maybe during my studying in the academy, maybe much earlier. All the way my real profession is now design-related. MY HOBBIES AND PREFERENCES Besides the music I'm carried away with programming from time to time. On Sinclair ZX Spectrum I've mastered two-pass assembler, four dialects of basic, Tr-Dos and Is-Dos applications programming, I've made several database control systems. On PC I got to know QBasic, Visual Basic, Java, Lisp, HTML and some other utilitarian languages. I never attempted to immerse myself in serious programming on PC cause I do not want no more to kill myself staring at the screen from dawn to dusk (I know too good what is the real programming). From the moment I bought a car I became an admirer of fast cars with powerful engines and giant dimensions. Of course sometimes that can be very inconvenient, but I like to feel myself as if I'm in a tank, even if that tank rubs all the neares yard walls down :) I hate any kinds of sports, especially team games. I could never manage to play together with somebodies not being the worst player in the team :))))) It's apparently some problem with my psychology. All my attempts to join in the game brought me only deep upsettings and bitter dissapointments, so I left them all completely. Seems the gods made me absolutely unfit for sports. As to my artistic preferences, my favourite artists are Salvador Dali, Max Ernst, Odylon Redon, Edward Munch, Ieronimus Bosch, Vasiliy Kandinsky. My favorite architectural styles are 'russian modern' and neobrutalism, the most favourite architect - Antonio Gaudi. Favourite music: Army Of Lovers, Mylene Farmer, Enigma, Vacuum, Ace Of Base, 2 Unlimited, Rammstein, Limp Bizkit, Uriah Heep, Prodigy, Apollo 440, KLF, Eminem... That's too much :) From the russian musicians best of all I like Linda, Agatha Christie and Kay Metov (I'm not joking at all). I think I've said enough about what I like and I also think now it's the right time to move on to more serious part of my biography directly related to my own musical creativity. If you have no good understanding of Army Of Lovers' musical heritage you'd better finish your study of my story straight at these lines otherwise I'm scared to seem absolutely uninteresting for you. HOW HAD I BECOME A MUSIC COMPOSER My father was also a jazz pianist (now he is too but he's not busy with it seriously concentrating on earning money). We had a home piano and he often played his lovely blues and ragtimes. When I was five years old I told my mom I wanna learn to play piano too. Thanx to my parents, they never refused me to have any of my various hobbies and always helped me with it. So, my mother found a piano teacher for me, then another teacher, then a musical school, so I was learning to play piano for almost five years. That time I also tried myself in composing some melodies, but my teachers were absolutely indifferent to my own creativity. After that years I finally felt myself completely bored with playing that music my teachers told me to play and then I decided to leave the school. At that time I already became hateful to the instrument and after leaving the school I hadn't even come close to piano almost for a year. I felt I was fed up with playing and that took me much time to rest from it. Then I started to play only what I want and when I want. That was cool :) Oh! I've forgotten one thing! When I was ten years old I told my mom I wanna learn to play guitar and entered the guitar class. That was ended the same way as with the piano :) Are you still reading this? I'm a little surprised. Well, listen to the sequel. When I was 13 I started to write some tunes. It came suddenly, I felt myself as a composer. Oh, that was very immature music I played to the tape. But it was all definitely very sad. The first strong impression I experienced was that what I felt hearing Show Must Go On by Freddie Mercury. I had even made a coverversion on it. I mixed together records of me playing piano chords, druming with big scissors by my english dictionary and at the top playing guitar solo with simultaneous singing some vocals which should resemble Show Must Go On main theme. The result record sounded as if it was the band playing. That had become the first of my various musical experiments. After that I attempted to mix my live records with computer instruments (I had Sinclair ZX Spectrum at that time), the result sounded nasty but I liked it cause couldn't do nothing better with poor music tools I had. As to my musical preferences at that period I should mention Uriah Heep, Beatles and Nautilus Pompilius. I often listened to Europa Plus FM radio. And once in the evening, listening to the radio as usual I heard Crucified (by Army Of Lovers) for the first time. The song was almost over and I could hear only the chorus. But what a chorus! That moment I felt something I call now an aural orgasm (this definition was firstly used by Shane Speck). I suddenly realized that that music was the music of my own. In that evening I fell in love to Army Of Lovers. ARMY OF LOVERS AND ME Like people need physical sex from time to time I also felt a need to have an aural sex. Army Of Lovers generously provided me with the objects of my lovely aural sex. Listening to The Gods Of Earth And Heaven I discovered I liked almost every song from this album. An aural orgasm happened to me from songs Carry My Urn To Ukraine, I Am, The Ballad Of Marie Curie, The Day The Gods Help Us All and then from Supernatural, Judgement Day, Say Goodbye To Babylon, etc., etc., etc... Feeling myself definitely creative person I started to explore these songs. I analysed all the musical parts, dissected every the song to separate pieces. I longed to understand how do they do that, how can they arise such a strong emotions in me by their music? During this process I revealed more and more things I hadn't noticed before. At the same time I begun to compose my own songs in the manner of Army Of Lovers. The first one was called 'Inflation' (this word resembles 'Obsession':). It was written under the influence of 'The Ballad Of Marie Curie' plus 'Judgement Day' and this creation had an aim rather to show how good had I learned the material then to be a serious work of mine. That's why it was never released later. Now I'm thinking of releasing this song for the history. SEARCHING FOR MY OWN As to the songs released and represented at my PandemoniuM site, the first of them were Leaving For Heaven and Predestination main themes (1995-96). That was the outset of my own creativity that formed my own style however still based on Army Of Lovers' musical conception. I defined the main aim of my music is awaking strong emotions in the listener. And I'm still convinced that the strongest emotions of the human are related to all tragic. That's why the music I write is such a depressingly sad. In this field I wanna go much further than Alexander Bard ever dare to. Another important thing (I took from AoL's example) is the statement of never being too serious 'bout your works. If you start to feel yourself of genius and think your music deserves serious regard you've finished as a composer. Oh, seems I've already said too much... Well, listen to what I'm talking 'bout at PandemoniuM Official Website... Bye :) CONTACTS E-mail: dr_yorick@mail.ru My ICQ number: 20358473 View my Guestbook Sign my Guestbook Some inet links to my friends: Andrew Curds, Dream, Shane Speck
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